Working with teenagers and having a teenager, makes me sometimes wonder am I getting through? I love our youth group, but sometimes I wonder do they really understand how important it is that they get it. It being how important it is that they strive to put God first in their lives, and how important it is to make good choices. I know that no one is perfect and that everyone makes mistakes. I wonder sometimes, am I best for them, am I doing all that I can do to help them understand. I wonder sometimes am I the best choice for them. I am hard sometimes, I am very, how should I put this, strict and demand respect. I wonder sometimes about one young man in town that I have talked to about coming to church and getting involved in our group, and did not get much a response. Should I have gone back, contacted him again, tried harder, maybe then he would not be where he is now.
I wonder sometimes if my frustrations are not the devil trying to stop me from doing what I know I need to do. I wonder sometimes why I let my frustrations get taken out on some that do not deserve it, I am short and snappy sometimes ,because I am frustrated, for that I am sorry. I wonder sometimes what more can I do to help our youth and my teenager make right choices. I wonder sometimes why my thoughts are what they are. I seem to be always thinking of what else can I do. I wonder sometimes, is our youth group better off than they were at this time last year, are they closer to God? I wonder sometimes how much more can my heart take? I wonder sometimes do they really know how much I care? I wonder sometimes do I complain too much, now that one is one that I really need to think about!
I wonder sometimes, what does God think about, my wondering sometimes. He probably wonders, why I do not pray more about my frustrations. I wonder sometimes why I do not pray more as well. I wonder sometimes if all of you would please pray for me and my frustrations, I thank you if you do.
I wonder sometimes after reading this post if you all think that I am cracking up, not really just venting a little maybe. I wonder if I am feeling a little sorry for myself, hmmm could be. I wonder what my dad would say, "get up dust your self off and get back on." Yep that would be it and that is what I will do. Sorry for being so weird
2 comments:
I think there are times we all get frustrated with things, and I think its just a normal part of life, no matter what we are doing.
As for the youth, I think you are getting through. You see while you are teaching I am watching and I see changes in some, and some noone I think could get through to..so Hang in there...I love you and I support you 100%.. I think you are wonderful...
Cheryl
AMEN! (to what Cheryl said) I think you are doing a fantastic job. You have taken on a difficult and thankless task. Just know that THIS parent is grateful. It sometimes seems like you aren't getting through... because you can't see "results". I think that you are right that Satan tries to discourage you in that. Paul reminded the Corinthians... it is God who gives the increase. So - just plant away! Trust God to help what you can't and remember that WE APPRECIATE you!
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